I take refuge in the infinite retinue of the Buddhas, skillful in their methods and tireless in their exertions
I take refuge in the stainless Dharma, transmitted from the Tathagatas since beginningless time
I take refuge in the noble Sangha, unerring in their path and their commitments in spite of inconceivable challenge
Above all, I take refuge in the teacher, Majurishi given form in these unfortunate times
May the burning that has taken me now
Both the physical burning of fever
And the mental burning of restlessness and altered cognition via depression
Take the place of the burning of all the Hells
And as my body is to wither and char
May all beings, born to experience nothing but torment through innumerable eons
Experience nothing but clarity and bliss for the infinity of time
May my pining, desirous behavior
My lust for flesh, to waste my little time
And to consume myself in ephemeral pursuits
Bring about my ruin alone
In exchange, may all those
Caught up in the trappings of greed, and sloth
Suddenly find themselves fulfilled and energized by nothing more than the sight of a flower
And may I alone be discontent, or unsatisfied
May all of my fears, anxieties, and paranoia
That which keeps me running, as a wounded animal runs from a hunter
Attract the fears, anxieties, and paranoia of all without exception
And, even if I am to live without respite throughout the rest of beginningless time
Throughout every possible birth that one can take, in a state of relentless panic
May I bear the fear of all sentient beings
And may all walk around contented, calm, and disciplined, never knowing discomfort
May each small bit of happiness
Or of wealth, or of knowledge
I have managed to pile up throughout my meager existence in this life
Leave me forever, at an instant, and never once return to me
May all of these things multiply a thousandfold, and then a thousandfold again
And then be delivered, instantaneously, to all beings
As if I were personally fulfilling each and every one of their desires
May each drop of water I drink
Leave countless sentient beings satisfied for eons, wanting for naught
And may it never so much as hinder my thirst
May each bite of food I eat
Leave countless sentient beings with boundless energy and uncountable wealth across lifetimes
And may it never so much as sate my hunger
May I give myself, joyfully, to the needs of all beings
So that even if someone came up to me and demanded to cut my own head off
I would not hesitate to prostrate myself before them
And then ask if they would like me to steady their blade
Even if it were to only bring them a moment of happiness
May all feel welcome to tear my flesh from my bones, to rip off my skin
Or even to cut me open and to cook me alive
Should it bring any of them even even a small diversion to do so
And may I do nothing but smile contentedly
May I come to bear bullets, and knives, and bombs,
Or whatever may come to harm any and all who are under attack
May I carry those who need to run
And may I carry the voice of those who need to be heard
May I never tire in doing this, but experience nothing but bliss
And may all who wish to call upon me reach me effortlessly
May I be a friend for the destitute, a doctor for the sick, a guardian for the unwanted
A guide for the hateful, and a source of inspiration for those that cannot find it in themselves to continue
May I manifest in infinite forms, acting in whatever ways I am needed, with no concern for time or place
And may I always do this kindly
And, may I even come to help myself in this way
For she is not good
But she is trying
Through whatever slight merit I have created in writing this
May I fulfill the above stated aims without delay
May I present all beings with the sublime Path, in whatever form best accords with their disposition, and may all practice it without fail, under my guidance
May I be tireless in this pursuit, forebearing all hardship, and may I never abandon the stainless, sublime Dharma from lifetime to lifetime
I have dedicated this merit thusly